quinta-feira, 29 de setembro de 2016


He did it again! My Lord and Savior – revealed Himself to me as my SUFFICIENCY!!!!!!

            On Monday night, into the wee hours of the night, my husband’s cell phone “dang” 2 or 3 times waking me up. It was around 4:00 AM. Sometimes the Lord does that and He brings me people to mind so I can pray for them. This time, though, I started thinking of different things and a negative thought came to mind. It was a thought of doubt and questioning (once again) where is my Plexus business going. I am “still” sitting on Silver since I got back on track in January! I have shared Plexus with so many people.

            I have to say that just this past two week the Lord gave me one new ambassador (and she’s one that I believe is a potential Rock Star) and one new Preferred Customer (who I also believe to have great potential and is on my dream team).

            But in that moment, where the doubts creeped back up, I started praying and asking the Lord again about my business. I couldn’t go back to sleep. I was just laying quietly on my side of the bed so that I wouldn’t wake my husband up.

            We got up around 6:30, did our morning routine (breakfast, clean up the kitchen, get ready for the day, pray together, etc). This time I also decided not to say anything to my husband (I usually do) because I didn’t want to “voice” those negative feelings. I decided I would keep praying and pushing through the day.

            My Mother and I went to a Bible Study with some of my church friends. It was good! Good to see those friends and know that for the next 7 weeks God will be speaking to us on the area of forgiveness. Good to know that I have friends who are serious about seeking the Lord and wanting healing for their lives, like I want it for my life!

            Came home, had lunch and worked on my business for most of the afternoon.

            In the evening there was another Women’s Church Gathering (“coincidence”). On a friend's lawn. God used a friend’s testimony to bring the issue of “Is Jesus my sufficiency or is it something else?” The friend who shared a powerful testimony asked us this question: are you expecting something to happen and believing that THAT is what you need? What do you really need?

            Came back home and had a Zoom meeting to participate in and do a little portion on Product Overview. I had prepared myself that afternoon, but always had a sense that I hadn’t prepared enough. The meeting was good, I shared my small portion and felt like I hadn’t really succeeded in that. I had only done a little of what my sponsor had asked me to do. Feeling like I could’ve done better. But, I didn’t dwell in that. I moved on. Got ready for bed, went to bed and had a fairly good night’s sleep, but woke up early praying and asking God those same questions.

            Wednesday morning comes and I set out to push through one more day. One more beautiful day that I did not have to “go to work”, but I had the privilege of “staying at work”! I worked for about an hour on my desk, in my temporary office. Then, I dropped my husband off at Lowes (his daily activity since we started this basement renovation project, LOL). I took my Mom to the Farmer’s Market in town and to Aldi (one of my favorite stores). Came home, had lunch with my husband, my Mom, my daughter and a friend who came to help bring sheet rock from the store in his big truck.

            Another friend came over to share and pray at 2:00 PM. I’ve been encouraging her to “trust” in the Lord. So, every time we come together to pray (because she needs the extra encouragement) I also get to be encouraged on my “trusting the Lord” issue. After she left I set at my desk again, and worked away – pushing through any questions, doubts and fears. A feeling of – I really don’t see how my business will grow unless the Lord intervenes, so I’ll keep doing what I know what to do and maybe a little more. Then, around 4:30PM I get an email saying that my friend (my newest Ambassador) had signed up a person. I rejoiced! 2 minutes later, I get another email saying that she had signed up a second person. I double rejoiced!

            My husband comes back from his errands, works in cleaning the trash from the basement and we eat a light dinner (our preference) and go to our Community Group. We are the leaders, but we meet at another family’s house. We have some 6 families with small children, 2 older couples (including us), 1 new couple, 2 singles and 1 widow - a great mixture of people of different ages who come together and spur each other on, pray for each other and worship the Lord together. So, last night the Lord surprised us again! The Holy Spirit led us to talk about our “Passion for the Lord”. We were asked “How passionate are we for Him?” And, after trying to “gage” that passion, “what are we going to do about it?”

            After worshipping and praying, we had our usual fellowship time around the kitchen counter with a few goodies. The 13 kids were running around, up and down the stairs, being kids, being a joy, having fun and we adults were sharing our lives with each other. Loving on one another!

            Got in the car to go back home and see a message on our “Hope Sisters” chat group. My sponsor asks me if my friend had signed up a third person? I checked my emails and sure enough, she got a third Ambassador! Wow! I overflowed with joy and gratitude! Only God can do such a thing! Only He can surprise me like that! Only He! He is my sufficiency! He is my all in all!

            My feeling at this moment is: I’m humbled before my God who is faithful! He has promised He is going to bless me so that I can bless others. It might take a while because He is teaching me valuable lessons and molding me. He’s making me to be a diamond. A diamond is not formed overnight. It takes time, heat and pressure. So, I will continue to enjoy the journey with my God, my All-sufficient God!

sexta-feira, 16 de setembro de 2016

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”
Prov. 3:5-6
I never cease to grow in trusting my Lord - ever since I was born! It’s like each day presents itself with new opportunities for me to practice that! And when I think I’ve got it figured out I realize there’s so much more to learn, so much more that I need to entrust Him with.
While in Africa just a few days ago, God started speaking to me on this matter. He reminded me of His words to Joshua:
“Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:8-9
So, first, I am to keep the “Book of the Law” always on my lips and meditate on it day and night. That was His command to Joshua and it is a command to me. If I want to keep the Word of God on my lips I have to meditate on it day and night. No other way! No excuses either! If I say I’m a disciple of Jesus, then I have to follow His example and His footsteps. If Jesus, himself, as a boy, studied and memorized scriptures why don’t I?
If I do keep the Word of God on my lips and meditate on it day and night, He promises that I will be prosperous and successful. Wow! I have been praying so much for God to prosper my ways and give me success on everything I do, especially my home business.
Then, He confronts me by asking ‘Have I not commanded you?’ Is that related to the ‘being in the Word’ mentioned previously or is it related to the next phrases where He again, commands me to be STRONG, COURAGEOUS, to NOT BE afraid, to NOT BE discouraged? And the promise after that is amazing! The Lord, my God, will be with me wherever I go. Wow again! What more would I want? What more would I need? As long as God is with me everywhere I go, then I’m good, I’m safe, I’m prosperous! Nothing else matters! My creator and my Daddy is with me.
Then, as Bruce was sharing with the Makua brothers and sisters, he mentioned that Joshua 1:8-9 is very similar to Psalm 1. So, here it is:
“Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers, but whose delight is in the law of the Lord, and who meditates on his law day and night.” Psalm 1:1-2
He was right! Here comes the “meditate on his law day and night.” No excuses!
“That person is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither – whatever they do prosper.” Psalm 1:3
And here is the same promise – PROSPERITY!
“Not so the wicked! They are like chaff that the wind blows away. Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgement, nor sinners in the assembly of the righteous. For the Lord watches over the way of the righteous but the way of the wicked leads to destruction.” Psalm 1:4-6
Speaking of wind…. This morning the Lord brings me this verse to “meditate” on:
“Just as you cannot understand the path of the wind so you cannot understand the activity of God.” Ecclesiastes 11:5
Since we’ve arrived from Mozambique this past Saturday, Bruce and I are dealing with jet lag. This is not our first international trip and certainly not first time to Africa and back. We know how it works. But, this time (maybe because I’m more aware of my body, and growing older although not feeling older, haha) I’ve been researching on jet lag and trying to understand what’s going on with my own body. Each day presents itself with different symptoms that I hadn’t noticed on previous experiences. Yesterday (the 4th day after we came back) I woke up very exhausted and sore (from having tried Crossfit for the first time – very dumb on my part) so my mood was different. I started struggling with negative thoughts. Thoughts of hopelessness were in the midst. But, I did not despair. I had had those feelings many times before so I knew how not to sink back into them. I started praying earnestly that the Lord would speak to me, strengthen me and take me out of that predicament.
Being this is the 5th morning that we wake up back at home and knowing that it takes about a day for each time zone that we had crossed, I was sure I was going to sleep until 6AM today. Much to my surprise I started waking up at 4AM. Immediately I started praying and asking God some questions that had been on my heart all day yesterday: 1. Why am I still sitting on the “Silver” rank of my company? 2. What else do I need to learn? 3. Am I afraid of sharing with people? 4. What books do I need to read, or what courses do I need to take, or what do I need to do to move forward? 5. How can I organize my temporary office while we finish our basement where I’ll have my permanent office? I prayed for a while, dozed off for a little bit, prayed some more quietly to not disturb my husband. We finally got up at 6 AM.
Before I stepped out of bed I already had a different attitude. During my prayer time the Lord started showing me what to do, how to proceed and what to do this day. After breakfast, as I opened up my Bible app to continue my Bible plan, the Lord brought to me this verse in Ecclesiastes. He spoke to me very clearly. Who am I to understand the path of the wind? Who am I to understand God’s activity? I can feel the wind, but have no way of explaining where it came from or where it’s going to (I do have an idea, but am never sure). I know God is active, alive and He is so very creative. I simply can’t understand ALL that He’s doing. I know only in part.
So, what is my role in all of this? What should be my attitude? I go back to my first verse: TRUST IN THE LORD! Easier said than done, right? But that IS my answer! I should have an attitude of gratitude in all He’s doing and totally trust in the One who holds the universe in His hands.  
Neide Colson
September 15th, 2016.

quinta-feira, 2 de abril de 2015

"Six days before the Passover, Jesus came to Bethany, where Lazarus lived, whom Jesus had raised from the dead. Here a dinner was given in Jesus' honor. Martha served, while Lazarus was among those reclining at the table with him. Then Mary took a pint of pure nard, an expensive perfume; she poured it on Jesus' feet and wiped his feet with her hair. And the house was filled with the fragrance of the perfume." John 12:1-3

The kind of perfume Mary used was ‘pure nard’. An oil/fragrance used as a perfume, as a medicine or for religious purposes back then. At that time, many people knew the high cost of that perfume, so they were able to quickly figure out that the amount of perfume she used was worth a whole lot of land, and that land could’ve been sold and used to help the poor. It was also worth a whole year’s wage. Imagine that! Imagine using your whole year’s wage to pour it all out on Jesus! Mary did that!
That was Mary’s worship that day! Her worship was an expression of her heart. That was for sure her worship! Mary’s worship was messy! It made a mess on Jesus’ feet (probably calloused from walking to spread the Good News, teach the multitudes, feed the hungry and heal the sick). It was a mess because she used her own hair to wipe it off, so her hair was messed up! Despite the fact that she was a woman and should've been in the kitchen with her sister, she did not feel intimidated by the presence of the men! She did not feel intimidated by the "Apostles!" She simply worshipped her Lord! 

What a courageous woman! She loved Jesus so much and she probably felt a debt of gratitude towards Him. So, it leaves me to wonder! Had Jesus healed her from diseases? Had He touched her heart in a very special way? Had He washed her clean from all unrighteousness and delivered her from many sins? Had He given her hope of a better life? Had He renewed her vision for what her life could become?

Yes, Jesus has healed me from diseases! He has delivered me from depression, He once healed me from a big uterine tumor. He has touched my heart in a very deep way! He has shown mercy towards me! He has cleansed me from my own dirty messy sins! He has given me hope not only for life in the future, but life in the present – the eternal life that starts now! He has renewed my vision! I now see far out! I see what He wants to do with my life and through my life!

Mary’s worship was messy! "And the house was filled with the fragrance of the perfume." The perfume must’ve dripped on the floor and even on her own clothes, maybe even on someone else that was sitting by Jesus.

I want my worship to be like Mary’s! I want my worship to fill my house, the house of God and any other house I go into. And I want my worship to inspire people to do the same. I want my worship to touch me back and touch others around me. I want my worship to the Lord Jesus be so genuine, unashamed and free that it will touch many lives to receive the freedom, the vision, the hope and the power that I now have!
How is your worship? Is it touching lives? Is it inspiring others?

segunda-feira, 12 de janeiro de 2015

Suffering from severe pain?

Yesterday, at church, during the message (which was an opening to the few months study on the Sermon on the Mount) the preacher read Matthew 4:17 and I kept on reading the rest of the chapter to myself. Then, I came to this portion which spoke to me tremendously:

“Jesus went throughout Galilee, teaching in their synagogues, proclaiming the good news of the kingdom, and healing every disease and sickness among the people. News about him spread all over Syria, and people brought to him all who were ill with various diseases, those suffering severe pain, the demon-possessed, those having seizures, and the paralyzed; and he healed them.” Matthew 4:23-24

I started meditating about how Jesus PREACHED the good news of the kingdom, but he went on HEALING EVERY DISEASE AND SICKNESS! He was not only concerned that people would “get it” (the Kingdom of God), but also that their bodies would be healed so that they could live IT out!

People were brought to Him so that He could heal them. What types of diseases did he heal? Here is the list:

1.    Those suffering severe pain,
2.    The demon-possessed,
3.    Those having seizures,
 4.    And the paralyzed.

Wow! I was amazed at what God was speaking to me and revealing to me right then! I was amazed because I know several people who suffer from SEVERE PAIN! I have so many friends who struggle with Fybromialgia, RSD, migraines and such!

Demon-possessed? Well, we don’t run into to those people too often these days. Although, I will have to tell you that when we moved to Green Bay, WI, back in 1991 (from Brazil), my husband and I thought we would not have to deal with that in WI, since this was America. We had had enough of those experiences in Brazil where there is plenty of spiritism going on. Little did we know that God was going to bring an army of people who needed deliverance from Satan and his demons. Nevertheless, these days, here in TN, we haven’t encountered any really “demon-possessed”, although I see MANY who are totally “dominated” by the power of darkness. And, I’m not talking about only those who don’t know Christ, I’m talking about “Christians” who are so deceived in so many ways. They think they are saved and that’s it!

Those having seizures! I do have a few friends who suffer from seizures, epilepsy, and other problems like that! Those problems that defy medical science and the doctors. Those problems that we really don’t know what to do except to give people the strong medications to control their symptoms.

And, finally, he mentions the paralyzed. I see two categories here: the physically paralyzed because of diseases that led them to be that way. And I also saw the emotionally paralyzed – those who because of fear, neurosis and other pathologies find themselves “stuck” in life!

The GOOD NEWS? Jesus STILL has the power to heal all of the above! The Good News? The Kingdom of God has to be preached as it is in the Word of God! And, after preaching the Kingdom of God we, so-called Christians, need to pray that people will be healed! The physical and emotional healing goes hand-in-hand with the spiritual healing! It is our responsibility as Christians to preach a wholesome and holistic Gospel.

I am ready to do just what God tells me to do. How about you, my friend? I’m talking to my Christian friends!

Please, feel free to respond to this blog! I love exchanging thoughts, ideas, impressions and “revelations”!

terça-feira, 30 de dezembro de 2014


It just hit me! Where does it come from? How do I learn to be faithful?
The other day this thought came to mind: how can couples remain faithful to each other this day and age? How can husbands remain faithful to their wives when the women at work are hitting on them? How can wives remain faithful to their husbands when they can be so independent, outgoing, successful in their jobs, feeling full of power? How?
Actually, when I was engaged (to be married) with Bruce, I asked a similar question to my cell group leader. I asked her “How can you love the same person for the rest of your life?” Of course I was madly in love with Bruce, but when you look around and you see so many broken homes (even in the Church), or when you grow up feeling very insecure of the love of your father for your mother,   doubts come into your heart! You don’t really know how you will be able to commit your love “until death do us apart!”
As I have reflected on that this week, it came to mind that I learn “Faithfulness” from the “Faithful One” – God alone! It is He who teaches me, molds me, rebukes me, loves on me and makes me faithful! Faithful, first and foremost, to Him! Faithful to my husband! Faithful to my family! Faithful at my work place (it is so tempting, at times, to take advantage of things at work and just “use” them as if they were my own).
That’s why in the Old Testament, God compared the sin of “adultery” to “unfaithfulness” to Him! That’s why God also compared our relationship (as His Church) to Him as a “marriage covenant relationship!” It all flows together! You cannot say you are a Christian if you do not follow Jesus Christ. You cannot say you love your brothers and sisters (who you can see) if you do not LOVE God (who you cannot see). You cannot be faithful to anyone in this life if you’re not faithful to God!

“Know therefore that the LORD your God is God, the faithful God  who keeps covenant and steadfast love with those who love him and keep his commandments, to a thousand generations,” (Deuteronomy 7:9) – He is “Elohim Aman” (God who is faithful!)
“Your steadfast love, O LORD, extends to the heavens, your faithfulness to the clouds.” (Psalms 36:5)

“The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases;  his mercies never come to an end; they are new  every morning; great is your faithfulness.” (Lamentations 3:22-23)

“Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful.” (Hebrews 10:23)
“He will cover you with his pinions, and under his wings you will  find refuge; his faithfulness is  a shield and buckler.” (Psalms 91:4)



domingo, 23 de novembro de 2014


"Lord, I look up to you, up to heaven, where you rule.

As a servant depends on his master, as a maid depends on her mistress, so we will keep looking to you, O Lord our God, until you have mercy on us.
Be merciful to us, Lord, be merciful; we have been treated with so much contempt.
We have been mocked too long by the rich and scorned by proud oppressors."
Psalm 123

quinta-feira, 13 de novembro de 2014


The other day I was in the living room watching a movie with our “adopted daughter”, Angela. We were ready and expecting the arrival of some people who were going to join Bruce to watch the Packer x Bear game. The home theatre is set up in the basement and people just go in through the garage (from the outside). We can hear when the garage door opens and closes. We can hear (and feel) when someone opens or closes the door to the home theatre. We can also hear (and feel) when someone opens the door to the stairs that leads to the main floor of the house.
Having said all that, I heard movement (and noises). I heard a door opening and people coming upstairs. I knew that would be my son Jonathan and his fiancée. So happy to see them! They are always so busy with school work, jobs, responsibilities, preparation for their wedding, Physical Therapy, etc. Then they went back downstairs. A little later I hear the door opening again and as I hear the steps I tell Angela, now it’s Bruce! Sure enough! And, I can always tell when Victoria comes home! Interesting how I can tell who is coming up the stairs from our basement! By the strength that they use to open up or close the doors, by the strength of their steps I can tell if it is Bruce, Jonathan or Victoria. Each one has their unique accent and rhythm to their movements.

So, with the Sunday’s experience, it made me stop and think about my relationship with the Father! I know my Father knows my every walk, my closing of doors, and my simply breathing. He knows me intimately and He knows me deeply! He loves me unconditionally and accepts me for who I am. As my relationship with my Father deepens I, too, recognize when He talks to me, when He whispers in my ear, when He walks about my house bringing peace and order. And, the same way, I recognize (more and more) how the enemy tries to lie to me, how he tries to touch my body (or anyone in my family) with sicknesses and ailments, how he tries to distract me from spending time with my Lord, how he tries and tries to move me from my position of dependency on God! Oh, Satan, you are a loser!
So, here is Psalm 139:1-18, re-written and applied to my own situation:

For the director of music. Of Neide. A psalm
1.       Lord, you know me so well and so deeply!
2.       You know my ever movement. You know when I’m going to get up and when I’m going to sit down. You know what my next thought will be even before I do.
3.       You know when I’m going out of the house and when I’m going to lie down. You know me so well that you know my favorite places to go.
4.       Before I think of a word, You already know what I’m going to say.
5.       Your presence is behind me and before me, you are all around me!
6.       That’s an amazing thing to realize! That’s TOO WONDERFUL FOR ME, even too much to grasp!
7.       There’s just no way I can flee from your Spirit! There’s no way I can run away from you!
8.       If I travel in the biggest airplanes and go up high, you are there; if I dig the deepest hole on earth, you are there.
9.       If I reach the very place where the Sun appears, or if I reach the farthest seashore,
10.   Even in those places you will guide me, your strong and mighty hand will protect me.
11.   If I think that the darkest night will hide me and every light around me will go out,
12.   Even the darkest darkness will not be dark to you; you can see me through the dark just like you see me in the day, because there is no limitation to you and your power.
13.   You created MY INMOST BEING; you knit me in my mother’s womb like I knit my scarves (each stich is so important and crucial for the whole scarf).
14.   I praise you because you have created me so uniquely and so amazingly; everything you do and make is so WONDERFUL, I know that for a fact.
15.   Even in the depths of my mother’s womb I was not hidden from you, in fact, that’s where you wove me together.
16.   Your eyes saw my body even before it was formed; and all the days of my life have been ordained by you and prescribed in your book before I was even born.
17.   HOW INCREDIBLY LOVED I FEEL BY THOSE THOUGHTS, GOD! How infinite are the sum of those thoughts!
18.   If I were to count them, I would simply loose track because they are more than the numbers I can even tell – when I wake up, I am with you, always with you, still with you, forever with you.